Story of A Girl

"Unexpected Being Single"..

That's Happen To This Girl..
Not To Say That It Is This Girl Fault..
Because This Girl Had Try Her Best For A Relationship & Yet..
Its Not Going Well As This Girl Wanted To Be..
Poor Little Lady! You Are Just So Sweet..
But The Other Someone Who I Can Say As A "Complicated One"..
Create All That Mess..
Wish That This Girl Was That Someone..
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People Said That " Love Someone Who Love You Instead Of You Love Someone"..
Is That True?
Well, Maybe It Is..
Its Just That This Girl Cannot Practice That Way..
To Be Honest, Is There Still A Girl Who Want To Be In A Relatonship If There Is No Feeling Inside Her..?
I Don't Think So..
Me Too..
I Don't Think I CAN Be In Those Kind Of Relationship..
Hell Yeah!

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Back To Business:
This Girl Being Single In A Way That Is Truly Deeply Madly Unexpected..
And Recovery Is A Long Way To Go..
As This Girl Haven't Felt So In LOVE Like This..
And This Girl Always Thinking What Is Wrong With Herself..
And This Girl Realize That Herself Is Much More Better From Others..
Lucky Her That There Are Many People Support Her..
And Thank To All Of Them That This Girl Kindly Recover..
Not Fully Recover, But Kind Of Better Than Before..

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Look So GooD~

Hey boy I would of thought that when you left me
I'd be broken with my confidence gone.. so bummed..
Hey boy I would of thought that when you said that you don't want me
I'd feel ugly n sense something was wrong
Standing in front of the mirror.. my skin's never been clearer
My smile's never been brighter

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done.. with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good, I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you

Hey I'd never would of thought that when you left me
I'd feel sexy n so good in my skin again
And I'd never would of known that
I'd be dreamin' so much better without you in my head
Standing in front of the mirror.. my clothes never fit better
My life's never been brighter

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done.. with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good, I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you

Now baby my body's lookin' better than before
Ain't bitin' my nails since you walked out of that door
I realized now I deserve so much more than what you give
Than what you give (than what you give..)

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done.. with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done.. with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good ,I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you

BY: Jessie James
(T_T)...

Boring~

huahuahua~

lma x update blog..

bz mnjang ler ktekan..hakhak..

tp da buka ne xtau lak nk post pa..

hmm...

wnna story bout it but ders no use i guess..

hmmmm......boringgggg~

next week?

next week hri yg mndebarkn..huahuahua..

hari yg memerlukn ak mbentangkn keja2 yg tah pa2 tah..xphm ak..

hrp2 ak tau pa yg ak wat nnt..

if xtau pa yg ak wat..

mati kna bom la nee...~

huahuahua...

cuti da abes~

smlm ak berjaya smpi kt Semenanjung ne ngn jaya n selamatnya~hehe..

nsb bek la sal sblom balik ak mmg x sdap ati gler2..

tah pk akn jd sumtin kot..

start je kapal tu nek ak da rsa dug dag da dlm dada ak..

tp nsb bek nek tu pramugari tu snyum ngn seikhlas hati dia, so krg ckit la dug dag (means?)..hahaha..poyoz..

dlm hati "Minta2 la kapal ne x terhempas dlm Laut China Selatan tu"..

hahaha~

gler ar ak pk cmtu tp yela..kna la pk gak..amal ak x byk g..x ckup g nk bwa ke mati..

tu yg ak isau sgt tu..

hehe~

tp ak bserah je smlm..da nk landing tu bru la lega ckit dlm ati ak..huhu~

ke mmg sngaja ati ak ne memainkn ak d saat ak nk nek tu..~ish2..xpatot sggh..

pstu kt LCCT tu g amik teksi kot..(bajet hbat pdhal tpksa)..

yela,teksi g pncak alam je da rm104..!

gilo apo? da la tgh pokai2 ne,ttap gak nk chrge ak smpi cmtu..ish3..

ak xpk sgt tu, tpksa la nek teksi dr ak pnat nk tggu bus..sal ak mmg da pnat gler2 da..so amik je la..

pastu g mkn kt McD..tgh order ne..

leh lak ada mamat Arab kt sblah..order tp xtau ckp English..

cashier tnya nk coke medium or large..dia angguk2 je..

bnda sama bla dia nk order mkn..medium or large,dia angguk je..

ak rsa cashier tu pon da hangin 1 bdn..hehehe..tgk muka da ckit g nk kelat..hahahah~

ish3..bia btol x tau ckp english~cmna la dia brurusan kt imigresen td ek?

nk tlg tp ak pon bkn tau dia nk apa kn so ak trus je la amik mknan ak n blah..sal perut da lapo gler..~

mkn2..

org rmi gler tp rmi tourist je la..

pastu ada mat salleh duk blkg, meja sblh dia x clear g..dgr2 la dia ceta ngn ank dia,dia pelik npa org cni x angkt tray pas mkn tu..kn self service..

tp tu la culture cni,mkn tp x reti nk phm mksd self service tu..

ak yg phm ngn concept ne (cewah..bunyi cam blagak je)..hahaha~ so ak g la buang sndiri..mls nk duk lama,lenguh bdn+nantok+pening tgk manusia bduyun2 tu..

bkn blagak tp da blaja..

hehe~~~

New Month, New Time, New Me~

da msuk bln SEPT da ek... cpat gak masa blalu..bkn gak lg..da mmg cpt da ne.. rsa bru td ak msuk sem bru ne da ptghan da.. masa mmg mencemburui ak npknya..huahuahua.. ye la..masa da suntuk utk suma asgmnt2 utk d siapkn.. so,raya ne tpksa la ak control2 ckit,smbil raya smbil wat keja..
sambil wat kuih raya,smbil wat asgmnt.. hahahahaha~ best gler cmtu ek.. pastu blik2 ja dr Sabah
trus jd mamai ngn asgmnt.. arhhh....!x kira..raya ttap raya,asgmnt len ceta.. huhuhu..ish,tggu 3hb
ne cam lma lak...geram lak ak..huahua.. nantok tp ada sumtin nk wat ne...~

Test Day!

Test Day! HR??Watda? subjek yg boring ssgt~

tp bkn susa sgt pon test arini..

Miss K da bgi clue da kot + (specific clue dr group sblh),tggl stdy je tp tah la..

mls + xd mood gle2 lak nk stdy..(stdy ker)..

memikirkn hri2 trakhr ak utk ptghan sem ne kt cni..

Selamat Tinggal Puncak Alam..hahaha..poyoz..

InsyaALLAH..if selamat pegi n balik nnt, dpt la jnguk Puncak Pandora ne lg..

if x diizinkan-NYA, hnya knangan je la yg ak tgglkn...

aiks!sdih2 lak ak pepagi ne..

weh,sunat tau mgingati mati..~

:)..

sedih...gembira...

yeszaa,tggl 2 hri tuk ak lik sabah..!!!

xsbr kot..nk g merewang ngn akak..huhu..

nsb bek dia blik sama hri ngn ak..

so xd la t ak duk sorg je kt umah..

hahaha~bru dpt cal dr akak td..da mcm2 da plan..best gler2..!

mkin xsbr ne...ish3..

da la mood tuk test sok pon da lari..hahahaha~

hmm...

leh ke x ek ak ponteng claz khmis ne?

cam mls lak nk g claz...

bkn leh focus pon..huahuahua~

tp ak sdih..tpksa mninggalkn B..:'(

tp xpe, pas cuti leh jmpa ag..~~

xsbr sgt tggu blik dr cuti raya lak..lol..

(yg mna 1 ak excitedkn ne?)

Yeah!

Apology once...

Do it many times...

Hows that look?

Kinda...

NVM...

hmmmm~~

lagu besh!!

LIKE WE NEVER LOVED

You never looked so good
As you did last night
Underneath the city lights
There walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon
I swear you looked right through me
But I'm still living with your goodbye
And you're just going on with your life

How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye?
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

You, I hear you're doing fine
Seems like you're doing well
As far as I can tell
Time is leaving us behind
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
So tell me what your secret is?
To letting go, letting go like you did, like you did

Did you forget the magic?
Did you forget the passion?
Did you ever miss me
Ever long to kiss me?

Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

You, you never looked so good~

mEsti jadi malam ni!

da pk da td nk watpa mlm ne..

hahaha~

"ASSIGNMENT"...(Watdahack!!ak mest wat ke?hahaha)....

mlm ne nk x nk ak kna siapkn Retailing n Research..

Kang mrh lak g "DR" tu,ak x larat da dgr dia mbebel dlm claz..

rsa cam nk sumbat je tlinga,nsb bek bln posa..

dr awl sem smpi lah ne ak rsa tension tol msuk claz dia..

da la claz 2 kli smggu..

mghadap ceta n lawak yg sma sejak part 3 lak tu..

nangis ak dok dgr dia mbebel...huhu..

asik2 isu sma ja..

da wat keja pon asik redo cmna la keja nk siap..

da tu ngn isu references yg x abes2 sjak part 3 gak..

asal la dia ajar lg sem ne..huh!

ne nk jmpa dia khmis ne kna ada material,kang ngamuk lg dia..xthn da..

huhuhu~~

leh ke x ek ak score Research ne?cam keraguan ak tggi sgt ne nk pass sbjek ne..

sabar2..~

hati da kt Sabah da ne..xleh tggu 3 Sep!huhu~

so tired...

ari ni 1 claz je kot tp tah tired mcm nk mati..

ikot ati mls nk dtg claz..BEL je pon....hahaha..

tp mmikirkn yg ktorg akn wat interview kt travel agency,tpksa gak la ak bgun pg mgadap mdm awl2 pg..

igtkn da settle la ngn T.A tu, tggl nk g intrvw n amik info2 je..

skali,hampeh..cal pon x, apoinment pon x..

pakat nk g je..

alih2 x jd..cait!pnya la smngt ak nk g(yeke?)..

ces,thp myesal ak g claz tu da mcm pa da..hahahaha..

ish3..

geram gak la..

tp xpa,da topup tdo td..dr jam 11-4 ptg?agak2 nk hmpir ke makruh x posa ak...

hehehehe~

pnat beb!tu yg tdo cmtu~

bgun2 lak membe ajak g tmn dia cri mkn,dia x posa la..

aish,lg potong tdo ak..huhuhu~

nk smbg x leh da,x bek tdo pas asar..huhu~

nk watpa ek?pk2...~

I'LL STAND BY YOU~

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
You're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

Im Juz An Ordinary Girl

Irritated?..Thats wat i felt yesterday..

Being neglected by him..

Hahahahaha~

But nevermind..

I must get used with it..

Coz he'll owez gonna be like dat..

I can't be a bit understanding lately..Y?

I juz can't understand myself...

For GOD sake, I dun want it be like this..~

huh!

Im Sorry 4 everythng!

boring wpon byk keja..hahahaha~

mggu ne best ckit la kot..

sal keja x byk..

tp tggu je la da bln sep n oct..

hahahahahha~

bln2 tu la yg mnduga ak..

bru tgk2 td da mcm2 bnda kna wat..huhu~

isau gak ne..

tp pk leh siap..

mayb kna wat cpat2 mna yg mmpu ne..

GOOD LUCK 4 MYSELF..!!!

GAMBATTE KUDASAI!

Love The Way You Lie!

Just Gonna Stand There and Watch Me Burn..

But That's Alright Because I Like The Way Its Hurt..

Just Gonna Stand There and Hear Me Breath..

But That's Alright Because I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE..!

S***** Day!

it is the day where "IT'S" committed...

regrets that...

how can i say that..

really not understand bout myself..

huarghhhh!hate that...

can i be nice for a while?

but thats the world..

fact that it is the moment..

where my day become soooo~~ s*****...

Birthday!

birthday tu sumtin yg ak tggu evry year..

ye la pompuan kn,hri best tu la dorg tggu sgt..

pompuan alert je ngn tarikh2 ne..

juz certain org je xtau..

yg pompuan ne cmtu..

tp besday ak thun ne best gler..

celebrate ngn org trsyg mau x best kn..:)

ak jrg celebrate besday ne..

yela,da bsar da kn,xd nya nk celebrate2 g..hehehe..

neway, my besday dis year best!~

Pagi Yg Senak

smlm claz ak pack gler (wpon x sgt r)..

hehehe..

lik2 je..mndi,wat keja ckit..pastu buka posa...

then rsa bdn da lenguh2,ak canx la g terawih..

huhuhu..xpe ar,ak g ar mlm ne lak..

nk stry mory cket..

ak rsa la kn, da smkin krg commn ngn dia la..

evntho slalu msg tp rsa yg dlu2 da xd da..

dia prlu ak g x ek?

pelik2..

ni tgh mikir la ne...

pa da jd ek?..

confius2..~~

Memory..:(

" You Will Owez Be in My Life, Even If Im Not In Your Life, Coz U Are In My Memory.."

Quote 4 U..

lately i owez listen to sad songs..

dunno y,memory of us kip comin..:(

extra wif the songs..

im started listening to songs he gave to me..

i hve to get rid of it..

coz i oredy got another "Him"..

honestly i do care about U..

dun eva thnkng dat i dun thnk of u..

u r my BestFriend!

i love how we've been 2gether b4..

but we hve to keep our distance apart a bit..

i know u r hurt but try to accept it..

me oso dunno wat to do..

thngs hve done..

we can't do anythng..

juz wait n hope 4 a better life!

i'll pray dat u can find sum1 better than me..

im a 'coquette'..~

dat somebody's me~~

Touching....:'(

ENRIQUE IGLESIAS – SOMEBODY’S ME

You,
Do you remember me
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind
To that time?

‘Cause I,
I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own,
And everyone can see that
I really fell
And I’m going through hell
Thinking ‘bout you with somebody else

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you
Every single night
Somebody can’t breathe
Without you, it’s lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That somebody’s me
That somebody’s me
Yeah

How,
How did we go wrong?
It was so good
And now it’s gone,
And I pray at night
That our paths soon will cross,
That what we had isn’t lost
‘Cause you’re always right here
In my thoughts

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you
Every single night
Somebody can’t breathe
Without you, it’s lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That somebody’s me
Oh, yeah

You will always be in my life,
Even if I’m not in your life,
‘Cause you’re in my memory

You,
When you remember me,
And before you set me free,
Oh, listen please.

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you
Every single night
Somebody can’t breathe
Without you, it’s lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That somebody’s me
(ha ha ha ha)
That somebody’s me
(ha ha ha ha)
That somebody’s me
(ha ha ha ha)
That somebody’s me
(ha ha ha ha)
Oh, yeah.

aku bersalah @ x?

he's totally different person 4 me...

rasa cam pelik lak bla kwn jd org len ngn kta kn...

tp x tau la kalo ak yg trasa...

tp btol what dia da x lyn ak..

tgk je la..da duk sblh2 tp dia wat ak cam xd je...

berserah je laaaaa....~~

rasa stail rmbut cane sesuai ngn ak ek...~~

ak tringin la nk tuka stail rmbut tp ngn bntuk muka ak ne,xtau nk tuka g stail pe.. hmmm....~~






STAIL 1 ne ak plg tringin skali nk try..hehehe~~













STAIL 2 Cun2 je tgk..:)














STAIL 3 Comel lak tgk rmbut pndek ne..














STAIL 4 I LOVE DIS 1!!!













STAIL 5 cute gak ne~
















STAIL 6 cun x? rsa nk je cmni..hahaha~














STAIL 7 Focus RAMBUT ek..bkn muka..~hehe~coz mka ktorg npk similar..boowlat!









Rsa2 stail mna cntik?hehehehe~~korg tgk la btk muka ak pdn x..hahaha~

IS it 4 me?

people said dat LOVE IS BLIND.....

yeah..me oso thnk dat way...

coz i got confuse wif my lov life now..

n owez keep thnking whether he need me or just need my attention...

n if dat 2nd option is d answer..for GOD sake..let me go!

i dun wanna be ur puppet...

i wanna be loved by U coz I reallly love U...

~..hahahaha~~

MISS YOU~

I Miss.......

Our time 2gether before.....

Our best moment before.....

Our best stories before......

Our relationship as Besties before....

Now....................

You changed bcoz of me.....

You changed bcoz I think I hurt U....

You changed bcoz I dun makes our relationship into serious r/ship.....

And I.....

Really hurt bcoz of U.....

Coz U....

Ignoring me as ur fren....

Hate me..(I Guess)

Dun wnna share anythng with me anymore....:(

Dun wanna be friend with me anymore....

Act normal but inside I know wat U felt...

And now I wanna say IM SORRRRYYYYY...

4 evrythng dat hurt U...

4 all d story dat I cannot share 2 U....

4 being a stupid and selfish friend to U...

4 4geting our bestfriendship...~

TRULY SORRY....:'(

Percutian Impian Aku..heheheehe~~

kalo la ak byk $$$$$$...tmpt ak nk sgt pegi ialah pulau2 kt seluruh dunia ne..

tp of coz pulau yg cantik,bersih,indah dan sewktu dgnnya..hehehehe~~

antra Pulau2 ak nk g:

1) CARRIBEAN ISLAND

baring ats hammock ne best gila r..huhuhu..

2) HAWAII ISLAND

ish3..pmndangan yg tsgt best..aman je rasa..

satu g..

ak tringin nk g waterfall yg best2 kt dunia ne...

best tau kt waterfall..

antra waterfall yg menarik hati ak..:

1) NIAGARA FALLS (ONTARIO,CANADA/ NEW YORK,USA)

best gler tgk falls ne....unik kot...:)..trasa nk g sgt...

2) YOSEMITE FALLS (CALIFORNIA, USA)

falls ne cntik sal view dia dgn kwasan pokok2 ru...best..!!

hrp2 impian ak jd knyataan la..

brusaha sbaik mgkn..heheheehe

chaiyok2..~

Miskin @ Kaya Bukan Ukuran

Pelik lak bla pk yg org igt ak ne pndag pada harta kekayaan orang bla nk brcinta...

duhh?doesnt make sense k..

tp tipu gak kalo ak ckp ak x pndg kaya..

slama ak hdup n falsafah ak kalo nk bcnta..xpnah ada ciri2 kaya..juz mmpu nk support ak da ckup la..xksah pon kaya ke x..

lgpon give n take dlm relationship kn pnting..

pa ada ngn kaya kalo prangai pon x ok..n pa gna miskin kalo prangai pon x ok..?

lbih krg je kn?

dlm relationship,kaya tu juz extra value added la org ckp..

tp sdih sgt2 bla org tuduh ak yg ak nk couple ngn org ne juz sbab dia kaya..dia x kaya pon..

tu yg ak xmmpu nk trima..

as if ak ne org yg kejar kekayaan..

FYI,im nt dat type of person k.........~~~

ckuplah ngn apa yg ak sndiri ada..xperlu nk mgharap kekayaan org len...~~

Mak ak ckp.."Biar kta xd apa2, tp jgn skali2 mnta ngn org len"..

ak pgang ckp mak ak...smpi skng ak xpnah mnta ngn mna2 llaki utk support ak..

slagi ak ada duit,ak support idop ak..

kalo xd,ak xleh nk wat pa2..dats it!!

baru lg..~~

21.12, 27/07/10...

smlm hri yg sgt best bg ak sal dia "officially" mine..hehehe..

wpon ada juga la ragu dlm hati ne ckit sal hbgan kmi ne..

ye la,dia pon lom break ngn gf dia kn..

ak rsa ak jht kot tp wat can i do..

tpksa la trima hakikat tu..

lgpon ak mmg btol2 syg dia..bkn men2 pnya...

tp xtau la dia syg or x kt ak..hehehe..

bserah ja la pa jd pasne..~~

hope so~~~~

Happy Life

Jumaat tghari yg damai sedamai hatiku...hahaha~~..poyo je ayat..

stakat ne ak rsa hdup ak da x cam dlu..

ak da knal diri ak yg sbnrnya, cmna style ak..

dlu ak mgkn x knal diri ak sgt..

tp skng ak da tau sifat ak yg sbnrnya..

ak membe ngn suma org..

tp stil ada batas2 trtntu g..

xleh la men langgar je praturan2 dunia ne..

ak ne kalo nk dikutkn mmg dak baik tp nakal nya mnta maaf la ek..

teramat2 nakal..

smpikn ak rsa ak ne pelik gak..

leh plak x cam diri sndiri..lucu bla pk..hehehe~~

nk d jadikn ceta...

ak ne jnis yg memilih gak if nk cri sum1 yg dkatakn bf..hahaha~

jd ak ada la knal sorg mamat ne, tp da ada gf..sdih kot ak..

ak xtau pa specialnya dia smpi dia leh dpt tmpt dlm hati ak..

tmpat tu lak bkn ckit2..dlm 100% tu,dia dpt 99% kot..

hehehehe~~..yg lawaknya,ktorg ada agreement..tp ak x suh dia pk sgt agreement tu..

live our both life as oth..dats the thng dat i prefer..:)..

tp skng ne ak da happy gila2 ngn dia wpon ak ada rsa guilty ckit..huhuhu..

TQ my B 4 giving me the best feelings!...:)

Hate That I Love You

That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
And I can't stand ya
Most everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like it for a while?

No, but you won't let me
You upset me, girl, and then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can't remember what you did

But I hate it
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long, that's wrong

But, I hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't wanna fuss and fight no more
Said, I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you, boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it's not fair how you take advantage of the fact
That I love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

And I hate how much I love you, girl
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

One of these days, maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me, yay

That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate how much I love you, boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so, so

p/s: meaningful song...~~..is there an end of the relationship?i hope there's no..

kputusan terbaik..

lama gler x update blog ne...

rsa cam da sthun pdhal bru brpa bln..heheheehe~~

hmmm..nk story pe ek..?

ow, skng life ak da x cam dlu g..

skang da jd single ladies da..

da msuk lik group yg ak n BFF ak wat dlu..

yg mna ktorg stay single until masing2 da ada sum1 yg leh jaga ktorg...huhuhuhu~~

rasa sunyi sepi mmg ada kot..

tp ak kna pk bnda tu xleh lyn sgt...

kang lyn cmtu jd nya len lak...

pa2 pun better what single life...

bak kta membe ak dlu.." cri ksnangan idop lu, bru pk sal llaki"...

ak kalo leh mmg nak cmtu tp pa kan daya hati ne xleh bwa bincang leklok...

hahahahahaha~~

tp ak ilek je..byk masa g kot..bknnya ak mati sok kalo xd sum1 yg brgelar " pakwe/ balak/ boyfriend etc...."

life must go on beb..!!

sngkn kuarga dlu bru pk suma ne..~

huhuhuhu~~

kdg2 ada gak trasa cam lagu Kelly Clarkson tu " My Life Would Suck Without You"

hahahaha~~

sabo je la...

hmm..da la..mls nk buka ceta sdih ne g..huhuhuhu~~

woah!abes da?x caya2..

huhuhu..ptg dlm lbh krg jam 3.23pm..

akhirnya ak merasa apa itu kebebasan...

huhuhu~~

pnya la rsa teruk sblm ne..

tp skng xtau lak nk wtpa...huhuhu...

yes!

sok balik SABAH!!

selamat tinggal Puncak Alam yg tercinta...

next sem ak jenguk ko eyk..heheheeh~~

huhuhu~~

n..........

hoping dat next sem i'll be fine..

facing them...

huhuhu..

hopefully....~~~~

but no matter wat...

dorg ttap my frens..:)

gonna mish u guys~~

well done

perfect tuesday morning...

hmm..i've never expect dat dis wud happen like dis...

u made me lyk dis n i hve to accept..

i knw dat im not dat important fren of u..

but bear in mind dat i wanted u 2 b my fren..

evntho u made me lyk dis but i dun care..

i oredi expect dat people wud do dis 2 me..

but who am i to deny a frenship..

i knw i hve to accept those wat i've created..

simple thng wud be d most memorable..

n if i'm not eligible 2 b one of ur buddy..

looks lyk im gonna quit frm dis frens relationship..

yeah right dat in friends, ders lot of prob,conflict n so on...

i assume its the sweet n spicy in a friendship..(new word i've made)

but dat doesnt count on the honesty in a relationship..

but 4 now,im hoping 4 a better conclusion........~~huh~~

Sunday?Boringggg.....

cuaca best jek ari ne..

tp yg x bestnya ak xd nk wtpe..

boring tahap mlmpau da ne...

nk d buat ceta, td ak kol mak ak..

bajet nk mnta fulus..

hehe..last2 ckp pnya ckp lupa lak..

da tu mls la nk ulang balik kol....

tp smpat gak la ak ckp ngn adik2 ku yg tercinta...

ak sdih skng adik ak yg sorg g ada mslh..

ak xleh thn la dgr2 ceta sdih..

automtik banjir mata ak...

dgn slambanya ak matikan kol cmtu..

da xnk dgr ceta yg wat ak sebak..

huhuhu..

xsabar nk balik..

nk jmpa dorg...

rndu yg teramat...

INSYAALLAH..dgn izin-NYA smpi la ak kt umah..

huhuhu..

am i dat bad?

Jumaat..

ak tertanya2 ne,aku ne jahat sgt ek?

ye la,ak da wat best friend ak kecik ati kot..

wpon dia x ckp tp ak dpt rasa cmtu la...

ak rsa ak x menjadi seorg kawan yg baik..

ak sdih gak ngn keadaan cmni...

ye la,dia cam da mjauh da dr ak...

ak sndiri pon xtau reason dia nk jauh dr ak...

ak tnya dia ckp xd pa2..

xleh la cmtu,at least dia gtau la pa ak da wat kt dia...

ne dia juz snyap je..

xtau ak nk pk pa da...

skng ne dia cam da jrg msg ak..

ak rndu dia kaco hri2 ak...

kdg2 msg ak pon da xbnyi da....

slalu ada ja dia msg....

kali ni dia cam da xnak da msg ngn ak....

kot2 dia da xnak kwn ngn ak..

tp x pe la,ak trima kalo dia nk buang ak dr jd kwn dia...

tp at least gtau la kalo x nk kwn ngn ak da....

ni dia snyap..

tgk je la cmna ksudahannya.......~~~

Sabtu...

hri yg sgt best utk stdy...

huhuhu..poyo je..

ckp stdy tp tido je byk..hahaha...

cmna ne ek..

da la pper tggl brpa ari je..

da tu pper yg nk mati gak r..

huhuhuhuhu~~~~

kpeningan,kmalasan,kengantukan...

suma ada skng ne...

adoyai...!!

Insanity

hotz from d oven..hehehe..

so happyyyyyy......:)

bt hope its stay longer...

being in dis situation makes me happy..

eventho its a bit "like a player"...

but im not a player..

am i suppose to be like dis..?

im questioning myself...

but i noe dis wouldnt last longer...

dats y i like being in dia scenario..

funs and makes me superb happy...(",)

hahaha...enuf wif happy2...

continue wif my stdy...

going 4 a war in a few days more..

dat will show my destiny..hehehe..

later guys!!~~

kemalasan....

rabu 21 april....

exam da start kot..

ak ni stil mls2..

pe kehenya?

asal ak cam xd mood nk stdy da sem ne..

ish,xleh jd btol r...

ak pon da nek borink bkak buku ne..

asal buka je mata nk lelap,asal buka je pk nk tido...

bangang btol r..

da la ak tggl sthun je stdy..

ubah la weh...

ak x larat nk extend2 ne..

mls ow mls..

go away from me..

try to get rid of u tp u x nk lari...

geram gler....!!

huh~~~

sok da start paper,dlm otak xdak pa pon..

huhuhuhuhu~~~~

best!!

lookin' at dat person...

really makes me missing it...

our moment b4...

hehehe~~

afta a few months....

still missin it..

if only u knew..

wat i feel inside me...

~~~~

new??

hehehehe....

afta a shortie convers, we knw wat 2 do nw..

it will be the beginning of our journey 2 be the better student..

hahaha..

kinda "naughty" but yet its will make us happy...

no more stress and tension afta dis...

feel free to be ourself...

no more backstabbing or what so ever..

hehehehe...

kinda relieve dat dis semester ends...

waiting 4 d final war..

hahahahaha~~

wish me luck~~!!

wat did i do wrong?

3.27 pm..

hmm..2day still d same..

dat person still d same..

i dunno la wat the heck dat the people think of me?

i hate dis!!

y dun u juz roll it out..!!

let me knw wat i've done wrong..

remain silence doesn't solve anythng..

i noe ur great but dun act like ur damn great..

nobody perfect!!

dat wat u shud think of...

huhhh~~~

im tired wit all those stupidity..

act like u r d one who can mad at people...

ders 1 thng reflects dis..

u r too much ego n u dun realize dat u hve d same mistakes...

..I oredi fed up wit all of dis probs..

its up 2 u to do wat u want n juz leave me alone..

dats all i want..

keep ur anger around u n dun blow it out...

so that u 'll stay "calm"...

huh~~

hypocrite...

dunia ni mcm2 perangai ada...

yang baik ngn yg buruk..

tp rsanya buruk lg byk kot..

huhu..xtau nk ckp cmna..

ak nk la ckp sal HYPOCRITE..

hahaha..sbut sal ni,ak pon trgolong dlm ne..bkn nk aibkn diri ak la..tp ak sdar ak pon ada sifat buruk ne..

ye la..da duk dlm community yg cam suma orgnya xleh pki....

dlm 2-3 thun lpas aku mmg da terbiasa ngn golgan cmni..

kdg2 ak rimas gak tp nk wat cmna..

org yg ak knl dlu pon rpanya hypocrite gak..pnya la ak x caya..

mna x nya..dlu pnya la fren ngn ak baik nk mati...

skng ne rpanya..talam dua muka kot...~

watever la...

skng ni ak rsa cam nk ckp je kt suma org rsa ati ak..

xnk da hypocrite2 ne..fed up da dgr mcm2 dr pihak tu, pihak ne...

tp ak tggu masa...

the times will come..~~

im waiting 4 it....

miSH HIM..~~

dis guy made my life suffer..

tp wpon da jd cmtu,ak ttap syg dia..

ye la,da dia yg mnjdikan ak spt skng..

kalo xd dia,ak xtau kot nk idop..

tp skng ak sgt rindu kt dia..TERSANGAT RINDU...

wpon dlm ati ada luka tp ak ttap syg dia..

smoga ada ksempatan utk bersama dia..

ALLAH S.W.T..help me to cope wit dis feeling..T.T

Kata Hati?

hmmm..
bru la ada masa nk update ne..
skng tgh b'pk ne..
apa ada kt ak yg wat org suka kt ak..
ak rsa bersalah sal dia cam da ada feeling kt ak..
ak xnk la wat org kecewa tp ak pon xtau dorg bleh ada feeling cmtu kt ak..
tp ak tau bnda tu x leh dikawal..
ye la..hati dan perasaan ni bahaya beb..!
kna2 ngn lyanan,mmg masyuk gak la..
ak pon cmtu gak..
tp ak leh kawal lg..
skng ne ak b'pk,adakah layanan ak thadap org d luar or kwn2 ak berlebih2?
ak x nk nnt ada yg kecewa sal ak..
tp ak tgh b'pk..
ak pon cam da ada masyuk2 gak syg kt org len ne..
tp dgn status diriku yang x menentu..
ak wat xtau je..
nk lebih2 kang len pla jadinya...

bru2 ni lak ak dpt ceta yang org yg syg ak mencurigai ak..
xptut sggh...
maybe dia igt ak ni PLAYGIRL kot!!!
oppss!!..sorry to say..tp ak mmg x leh dikongkong...hahahaha~~
bebas jd diri ak mmg yang TERBAIKKKKK!!

ceta len,
ak tau ak open-minded tp kdg2 ak rsau ngn pndgan org..
kot2 byk negatif dr positif..
sal ak rsau kalo2 org da label ak memcm..
kalo dorg tgk ak dr luaran la..huhu..
tp x kisah r..
jnji ak wat hal ak..
x kaco org...

Cinta?

hmm..org kata la kn..berkawan biar beribu,bercinta biar satu..

tp ramai ke org yg bleh bthn ngn 1 cinta..?

i dun think so...

sometimes me rsa me sorg yg teramat kejam..

sal me tlh mlakukn a bad thing..

tp its happen w/out me sdar..

me sama ngn semua org..

IM NOT A PERFECT GIRL!

tp me try to be..

somehow mmg susah..

bcoz..

hati ni kdg2 wat prangai gak..

bkn tetap...

y ar sumtimes..

me mcm no feeling at all...

i think bkn sumtimes lg..

mcm owez pla ne,,

me rsau ngn my feeling ne..

hmm..wat to do la..hve to thn ngn dis kind of feeling..
~~~~

Perempuan@Gadis@Wanita.....:)

hyez..

cam da jrg lak ak update blog ne..

bkn pa,xrajin je..hehehehe...

skng ni ada la relax ckit..ne yg best ckit nk update..

ni nk la ak kongsi cket2 pndangan ak sal title kt ats tu..

generally, ikut title mmg mcm2 org pk kn?

pa yg dikaitkn ngn P@G@W?

cam besa la..fashion, kerja, clique, study, anak, n mcm2 lg r..

tp ak nk bg pndagan sal Girls yg muda remaja je la sal ak xtau sgt dewasa pnya thinking..

hehehe...

ak stdy lg..besa la kt tmpat stdy mcm2 pompuan kta jmpa..ada yg baik n x baik sgt...tu tplg r

ngn dorg nk hdup life dorg cmna kn..

cam life ak..besa ja la,g claz,study,mkn,jnjalan,lpak n mcm2 lg r..

tp ak heran la..ada gak yg cam xpuas ati sesama pmpuan ne..iri hati x abes2..ish3..

tlg la ek,ko hdup cara ko, ak hdup cara ak..xyah kaco sesapa..

ak skng da tired nk jd hipokrit..ak nyesal gak ada habit yg x ska trus trang ne..

bnci ar tpksa pndam sumanya...kdg2 mkn dlm gak..sal nk kna cover sumanya...

da tu nk ceta kt sesape pon susa sal da xleh pcaya kt sesapa da..

nk cri % org yg trustable ni pon susa...

xpe la..kalo itu yg mereka nk,biarkn la..

mudah2an la hidup ak x susa...

Aminnn~~~~..

ak da xtau nk pilih mna yg kawan sbnrnya...

ko wat bek tp org tu ttap nk umpat ko,ckp mcm2 sal ko..

dorg knpa ek?

da life dorg lbih bek sal lak nk iri kt org lg..huhu...

lg 1 ak xska org yg blagak tahap dewa..

tlg la ek...ko nk blagak pon apa yg ko dpt..

plg koman pon org ckp blakang la...

know-it-all?one term yg ak xleh lpa...hahahaha...

skng ne ak da pk pjg da..

ak nk idup life ak ikut cra ak lak..

wat bnda ikut ska ak..

org xska tplg dorg..ak xkaco dorg pnya life..hehehe...

da la,mls lak nk pnjg2 ceta..

konklusinya...

"Perempuan Memang Complicated"...hahahahaha...

xcaya?experience sndiri r..:P..

My DaY....:(

Selasa?
totally ari yg sgt2 pnat..asal la claz pack ari slasa ne..xthn btol..
nsb bdn la..(bak kta akak ak.."tu la nk blaja sgt",thn r ngn susah"..)
hehehe...xnafikn kata2 akak aku tu..:)
tp ak cam xtau cmna idup ak kalo ak xblaja..
nk keja pon ak x brpa sgt..
keja mmg besh tp tggu la ak matang ckit..
skng ne enjoy lu ngn CAMPUS LIFE ak..
bkn slalu ne..
huh!..pa nk wat ek?
arini relax ckit kot..
keja byk kot tp xtau nk wat mna dlu..
tggu la lma ckit..
hrp2 la mlm ni ak RAJIN ckit tuk blaja..
ak ne xla pndai sgt tp tu la,da la krg pndai, mls plak nk blaja..
tlg la sdarkn ak dr men2..hehe..
relax sgt r ptg ne..
cam nk g jogging je..
tp tu la,nk jog sorg susa..kang ak pengsan xd nk tlg..hehe~~
da la ak ne xpnah trun jog sjak duk pncak ne..
duk mbesarkn diri ada la..
tp xpa..ALHAMDULILLAH ak maC shat walafiat..
hmm..nk g rest n relax jap..
nnt ak update g..:)..